.

"Some things are meant to be....

take my hand, take my whole life too.

For I can't help,

falling in love with you. "

This song is playing at Starbucks right now and it makes me so happy. :)

I was thinking about other lines from songs that I have loved over the years...here's a few:

"And I don't want the world to see me,

'cause I don't think that they'd understand,

When everything's made to be broken,

I just want you to know who I am,"

-Iris by the Goo Goo Dolls

"I watch you spin around in your highest heels,

you are the best one, of the best ones

We all look like we feel...

You have stolen my heart

You have stolen my heart."

-Stolen by Dashboard Confessional

"Can you lie next to her,

and give her your heart, your heart

as well as your body....

and can you lie next to her,

and confess your love, your love?

But tell me now, where was my fault

in loving you with my whole heart.

Lead me to the truth, and I will

follow you with my whole heart."

-White Blank Page by Mumford and Sons

"He is jealous for me,

loves like a hurricane

I am a tree,

bending beneath

the weight of his wind and

mercy.

And all of a sudden,

I am aware of these

afflictions eclipsed by

glory, and I realize

just how beautiful you

are and how great your

affections are for me."

-How He Loves by John MacMillan.

"Only love is all maroon

gluey feathers on a flume,

sky is womb

and she's the moon."

-Flume by Bon Iver

<3

To be free.

To be free

is to love without fear

to live without worry

to dance without care

Strength comes after weakness

stripped of delight

hitting the ground

consequences.

When did anyone say

it would be easy?

No one ever did.

But we don't think so.

Sometimes things don't

make sense,

but that my friends,

is the beauty

in the broken.

Inspiration.

"Always tell the truth

Use kind words

Keep your promises

Giggle and Laugh

BE POSITIVE

Love one another

always be grateful

FORGIVENESS is MANDATORY

TRY new things

say PLEASE & THANKYOU

Say your Prayers

SMILE. "

November 8th 2011.

I'm sorry for the times that I've let you down,

the times where I mope around,

don't say a word.

I'm sorry for the moments

where I don't love you

as best as I should.

When I don't show you

how important you are

to me.

I'm sorry when my insecurities affect you,

when I get jealous,

filled with fear,

and let my anxiety get the best of me.

I'm sorry for the moments

when I selfishly set expectations

for the time we spend together,

when I'm not as gracious

as I would like to be.

I'm sorry.

I want to live with no expectations,

live free,

happy

content,

no matter what the day brings.

Thank you for showing me love.

Thank you for sticking by me

in those moments when I fail.

Thank you for being near,

holding me close,

wiping my tears.

Those moments are precious,

and remind me of the love that

never fails.

Car ride.

driving in the car

heat cranked

windows down

contradiction.

music softly playing

speakers broken

harmony missing

nostalgic.

candy in the middle

mug in the holder

water on the floor

predictable.

hand in mine

eyes locked

perfect smiles

peace.

Secret

I believe that every star

is intentionally placed

with grace and perfect design

the fields were not just

haphazardly formed

no one else can move mountains

or cause the oceans to roar

when the sun shines

it shines with brilliance

the moon glows with elegance

and the clouds are perfectly shaped.

when will you see

that this is not just chance

things don't just happen like this

you can't invent the perfect shell

or the tender breeze that comes

after the storm

no one knows the secret

except One.

a proverb.

love me

when i least

deserve it because

that is when

i really need it.

-a swedish proverb

Burning Suns.

The days have gone by so fast,

swirling winds, burning suns

when did I last sit down?

Places whiz in my mind,

how come languages blur together?

it doesn't make sense

i thought it was different.

What's happening in London now

people still walk the streets

they don't even notice

that something is different

those who were there are gone

mind blown.

when will i see

how will it be?

I don't know if things will be the same

or if my thoughts can catch up

i've run so many times

but now i'm here

and that's where i want to be

i'll send a wave to my friends

hoping they know

that they meant something to me once

and i won't forget that.

November 3rd 2011.

You ever have those moments where you completely feel God's presence in your life?

I had one of those moments tonight.

I have been praying for one of my dear, dear friends for a long time to completely experience and know God personally. Tonight, I talked to her on the phone and was blown away by her passion and joy for God and His will for her life. I am SO thankful and amazed by God's goodness, and I never want to forget this night.

God answers prayer, God changes peoples' lives, and I am so glad that He is the God that I serve.

Peace and love my friends.

:)

Joy is like a ribbon.

Little kids trick or treating,

dressed up like princesses and Superman.

Hearing the news of an engagement,

smiling ear to ear, eyes glistening,

love glowing.

Candy in class,

sharing skittles,

feeling the sweetness on your tongue.

Chocolate milk,

creamy liquid,

licking your lips.

Starbucks,

pumpkin spice lattees;

falling leaves,

warm tummies.

Being in love,

glistening eyes,

butterflies,

respecting someone precious,

smiling always.

Joy is present.

November 2nd 2010

I wrote this a year ago in my journal.

"I'm so happy that I started a computer journal again. I miss my old one that is now forever gone and erased on my sister's computer. All my thoughts, and all the time I took to write out those thoughts will forever be gone; never again to be discovered or known. It's strange when life flickers by...thoughts and memories, hurts and pains vanish into thin air and you're left with nothing. When my thoughts and my stories are erased....it's a weird feeling. I feel empty; and like my creativity has been shot into a garbage dumpster never to be discovered or uncovered. And I want to write a novel, but I don't have the time or the motivation to start one afresh and to finish it on my own, I don't know what I want to write about. I'm lost with my own thoughts and I don't have time to figure anything else out.

I'm confused. Sometimes I feel like I'm never going to progress forward. I take one step forward and two steps back. I want to do everything. I want to know everyone. I want to experience all of life, but I can't. It's not possible, and I don't want to be overwhelmed with things that I can't do. I want to do things that I can do, and take it one step at a time. Taking things one step at a time is hard for me, because sometimes I just want to RUN full force ahead. But then I remember that I can easily fall. "