I Need to Care.

Hello world. 

I am sitting here in my humid, sticky room thinking about how badly I want to buy a fan. SO, hopefully in the near future, I will drive 5 minutes to Wall-mart and buy one. Someone keep me accountable to that. :P

I don't actually want to blog about fans, or humidity....I just don't really know where exactly to start this post. I guess I'll start with this book I'm reading called " The Ishbane Consiracy." It's been compared to "The Screwtape Letters," by C.S. Lewis, because it deals with the spiritual battle that is constantly going on in the world around us. As I've been reading this book, I have been continually challenged in my own complacency and acceptance of things that I shouldn't really be accepting of. Our culture, in its postmodern state, is constantly encouraged to be accepting of everyone, everywhere, all the time. We should never EVER be judgemental, or have any sense of absolute truth....because...OBVIOUSLY truth is always relative...right?? Wrong. I constantly battle with speaking the truth in love, as we are called to do as Christians, and trying not to be judgemental. Not very many people in our society like to step on peoples' toes, or challenge others on anything that might be wrong. Even by saying something's "wrong", makes people uncomfortable....because what's wrong for me, may not be wrong for someone else. In some ways, that is true. However, as Christians, I feel like there are some things that are "right" and "wrong" but we blur the lines too often and continually lower the bar of our standards to make sure that no one ever feels "too" convicted. To be completely honest, I'm a little frustrated by it all...and confused. 

I'm learning that the most loving thing that I could do for my brothers and sisters is to speak the truth in love....even if it hurts. The worst part about it all is, I suck at that. I am the WORST at confrontation and I avoid it at all costs. BUT....sometimes, I HAVE to say something. I look around me at my friends and those I care about...and see that sometimes no one says ANYTHING, even if the best thing we could all do, is SPEAK up for the truth. God is truth, His word is the truth...if we don't say something, we risk something worse happening to those we love and care about. Honesty has to be our policy, and not just sometimes....all the time. If something that I say offends someone for a moment, but helps them in the long term...that should be good enough for me to follow through and say it in love. :)