Perspective.

Recently, I have been feeling a little stressed. I'm planning on living in Hamilton this summer to work, and have been blessed to find a pretty cheap house to sublet for the summer. My biggest concern, remains, finding a job so I can finance school this upcoming fall. Last week, I was having one of those stressin' days, and was eating lunch with my friend Joel in the caf. I was venting about how I didn't have a job, and I had no clue where/when I would ever hear back from any of the companies I had given a resume to. Joel, who is also looking for a job, completely changed my perspective by calmly saying," Hannah, if you never had to worry about anything, and if you always had everything you needed....why would you ever have to rely on God? Sometimes these things happen, so we HAVE to rely and trust in God...." My pride was shot....in a good way. Sometimes, I'm so positive that I can do everything all by myself, that I forget how often God reminds us in His word, that when we are weak, HE is strong. Sure, people could get by without relying on God.... it's completely possible and happens everyday, but then....where is humility in that? Where is submission, and weakness? The world we live in, does not condone weakness and submission as something to be admired.... but the God I serve sure does. His Bible exemplifies it, in SO many ways.... but yet, I ALWAYS forget time after time. 

Yesterday, I once again, was going crazy from my high stress level and anxiety. At work, Deanna and I were both talking about how we still didn't have a job, and how negatively that was affecting our peace of mind. I left work completely fixated on my own problems. Later that day, I was walking to Spanish class, and Deanna came walking down the hall. She started telling me about the human trafficking seminar she had just come from. She told me, "After hearing all that's going on in the sex trade, and how there are THOUSANDS of innocent children being sold as sex slaves....worrying about a job seems absolutely ridiculous." Once again, my perspective was modified. God wants us to come to him with everything that we're bogged down by, and we're also called to carry each others' burdens. I've been learning a lot of things this week, and knowing myself...I know I'm bound to keep worrying about lots of things, but I really am hoping it'll hit me soon that God wants to help....and I just need to remember to let Him. 

"Your Love is Strong" by Jon Foreman

Heavenly Father 
You always amaze me
Let your kingdom come 
In my world and in my life
You give me the food I need 
To live through the day
And forgive me as I forgive 
The people that wronged me
Lead me far from temptation
Deliver me from the evil one

I look out the window 
The birds are composing
Not a note is out of tune 
Or out of place
I look at the meadow 
And stare at the flowers
Better dressed than any girl 
On her wedding day

So why do I worry?
Why do I freak out?
God knows what I need
You know what I need

Chorus (3x):
Your love is
Your love is
Your love is strong

The kingdom of the heavens 
Is now advancing
Invade my heart 
Invade this broken town
The kingdom of the heavens 
Is buried treasure
Will you sell yourself 
To buy the one you've found?

Two things you told me
That you are strong
And you love me
Yes, you love me

(Chorus 3x)

Our God in heaven
Hallowed be
Thy name above all names
Your kingdom come
Your will be done
On earth as it is in heaven
Give us today our daily bread
Forgive us wicked sinners
Lead us far away from our vices
And deliver us from these prisons