Patience and Trust.

It's almost Christmas, I can't wait!
The hardest part is getting through all the papers, exams, and Christmas shopping.
Snow is finally falling, and Christmas music is playing on the radio.
There is something so peaceful and good about this season.

Life is full of surprises,
that is one thing I have learned this year.
Even if I dont know all the answers, and can't control
the outcome of the things I wish to,
somehow things will turn out okay in the end.

Somedays I wish I could go back and react differently.
Somedays I wish I could have chosen to be content and let things go
......
but those moments have passed
and the one important thing that remains...
two actually..

are.
Patience
&
Trust.

It's a test.
Can I pass it?

Yes.

Please.

I want to with all my heart.

God of this heart :)

Today I have reason to celebrate,
today I have a reason to shout and sing for JOY
I have a hope that does not fade,
that will not give up on me,

Sitting here today in my house has been refreshing
it's weird being in an empty house,
over time it starts to feel confining and overwhelming...
simply being alone for so long.
HOWEVER...in those moments of stillness and quietness...God speaks
and God loves
I am so thankful for this afternoon of quieting my heart,
of realizing the fullness of God's love and blessing in my life
and I am so thankful for who He made me to be,
and the areas that He is constantly chiseling at
and turning into something beautiful.

I will shout for joy,
because the Lord has shown me great love,
love that I do not deserve,
love that I usually take for granted

but it is in the little things of my day,
that I am beginning to notice and hold onto
the unexpected encouragement from a friend,
the way the wind feels when I walk outside to the mailbox
the lights that comes in from my slanted window blinds,
the feel of being able to sing loudly as I fold my laundry
and praise the God who made me...
these things are the beautiful things of life,
the precious things that I never want to forget...
the things that so often can seem mundane and boring,
but when noticed and appreciated become the things
that make up our days and our lives

If I could pray for anything,
it would be....to appreciate and notice the small things,
which I tend to forget...
I want to see the wonder in the leaves on a tree, and
the wind that though I can't see it, I feel it, and it refreshes my body.

Life is too fast...too crazy
and when I lose myself in things that don't really matter...
I stop being thankful for the little things that do.

I want to live this day for the Lord,
if for no one else,
in Him there is freedom and contentment,
and all good things.

Praise the Lord.

I miss you.

As I sit here in this island paradise, 

hedged in by the majestic palms,

overlooking the glorious pink gold sunset

and the dusky waters of the ocean, 

my heart turns inside my chest, 

I wish you were here. 

I always knew I loved you, 

I always knew you were my heart...

but I have felt it so deeply here

hearing from you makes my stomach flutter

I wish I could read your words all the more, 

to wake up and know that you thought of me, 

as I do you...

if you only knew how much

a quick hello means to me, 

to know that you love me just the same;

I know that you do, 

and I am so thankful. 

 

No hay palabras

If only I knew how to communicate the words of my mind

I feel like I care too much, 

and wrestle with the expectations of my heart..

everywhere i look there are bouquets of flowers

white dresses, 

rings, 

laughter, 

my heart jumps within my chest

to be quieted just as quickly. 

I know this is all for a purpose, 

I know i know i know, 

but my heart does not understand fully

and so i wrestle and struggle, 

and fall down again..

My love, 

If you knew how my heart aches within me,

how I wish I could be fully contented in spirit

i will pretend

for you. 

no hay palabras

stronger.

I'm so tired,

my mind plays tricks on me

shouldn't you be this

shouldn't you be that

voices play around,

frustration builds

and then

silence

Be joyful

it whispers

remember who you are

don't sweat the little things

you are worth it

you can make it

you're going to be ok

the battle stops

for once, just once

i want to take it all in

soak it up,

play it over in my mind

because that's where the battle's at

and I know someone who is stronger than I

it's all going to be ok.

leap.

tiny speck on a streaked floor,

moving slowly, always watching

lines swirl, steadily than faster

spinning out of control

wishing to know the answer

lost, tangled, upside down

if only truth spoke loudly

an arrow points north

there's something to being thankful

it's not a mystery

hold on to the hope that is inside

the promise remains the same.

.

"Some things are meant to be....

take my hand, take my whole life too.

For I can't help,

falling in love with you. "

This song is playing at Starbucks right now and it makes me so happy. :)

I was thinking about other lines from songs that I have loved over the years...here's a few:

"And I don't want the world to see me,

'cause I don't think that they'd understand,

When everything's made to be broken,

I just want you to know who I am,"

-Iris by the Goo Goo Dolls

"I watch you spin around in your highest heels,

you are the best one, of the best ones

We all look like we feel...

You have stolen my heart

You have stolen my heart."

-Stolen by Dashboard Confessional

"Can you lie next to her,

and give her your heart, your heart

as well as your body....

and can you lie next to her,

and confess your love, your love?

But tell me now, where was my fault

in loving you with my whole heart.

Lead me to the truth, and I will

follow you with my whole heart."

-White Blank Page by Mumford and Sons

"He is jealous for me,

loves like a hurricane

I am a tree,

bending beneath

the weight of his wind and

mercy.

And all of a sudden,

I am aware of these

afflictions eclipsed by

glory, and I realize

just how beautiful you

are and how great your

affections are for me."

-How He Loves by John MacMillan.

"Only love is all maroon

gluey feathers on a flume,

sky is womb

and she's the moon."

-Flume by Bon Iver

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